All in a moment of time

today has been a really, really good day.  i had almost forgotten what days like these were like.  i am finally breathing again.  it's a wonderful feeling.  i feel more put together today than usual.  my being together isn't like most people's -- my together (or feeling normal) is analyzing newness.  there is so much reality that gets shielded from view.  too much in a day to wrap up into a simple little phrase.  i see beauty.  it scares me,  and i love it.  sometimes i must remember to stop and think a while.  i know there is more... i just have to see it.  i just have to shut my inwardness off long enough to see with my literal eyes.  sometimes their eyes are so much more focused.  just don't forget the many eyes of your emotions -- you will always need them.  sometimes they see more color than the eyes Jehovah gives you.  sometimes you can detect heat and cool in a person's eyes.  sometimes if you look away long enough, you can see someone crying out: "save me ... save me."  too bad i'm always trying to save myself.  where's my long lost friend, sleep.  i need to talk to him for a little while.  come and let us sit.  wash me.  i just hope i don't foget all of this tomorrow.  maybe some rest will help it sink in deeper still.  maybe.  we'll see.  we'll see.